Want to commit suicide which should look like accident, how it is possible?

i am in love with some one and he is a muslim guy but my parents wont be accepting him. I dont want to hurt my parents by marrying him and I dont want to hurt my boyfriend by leaving him because I have promised to him I wont be leaving we are in relationship from last 10 years.

I dont wont to marry anyone and stay alone for life long by hiding my relationship but its not possible to hide. because already I have got 2 to 3 time caught neighbor has informed to my parents about me and my relationship.

Now my parents want me to leave that guys and marry within 2 years to some hindu guys

so now I think to keep both of them happy in their life I should commit suicide.

my parents are crying, my boyfriend is crying and same time I cant leave both of them and hurt both of them

Asked Sep 14, 2017

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