Extremely Depressed (please take time to read all)

i feel so so depressed. basically, i'm in a relationship with a girl who lives about 20 minutes away, but I couldnt make it to her party last night. when I told her I couldnt come she got annoyed because of the timing etc and idk but I felt a kind of disconnect. sometimes I feel like I love her more than she loves me. anyways, I felt left out and upset to see alllllllll of the tons of photos from that night on snapchat and instagram so I deactivated both accounts for a couple of hours. in that time I realised how boring life is, im so lonely. I am nothing, there was nothing to do and if there was I didnt have the energy or mood to do it. I switched both accounts back on nearer the end of the night as I simply couldnt cope. anyways, I became really upset just by seeing my girl happy with other boys etc, dont ask me why it just naturally upset me her so close to them. at this point, if I stay with her I feel so so so depressed snd stressed and worried and upset, but if I leave her i'll feel more sad, MUCH more lonely and much more depressed. its an endless loophole. please help me, thanks.
Asked Aug 06, 2017

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