Hi, I'm sorry to hear that you're going through some troubles. I definitely understand that you may feel you are a burden to your mom. But if you are still in school right now, a counselor could be of help there. I know that talking to a stranger can be weird but if you build some type of relationship with the school counselor or a teacher you can trust, you can go talk to them. But one thing is, your gonna have to get out of your comfort zone and speak up. Being more social can help with depression even though it makes you want to do the opposite. Personally, I wouldn't tell you to go to the doctor so they can give you some type of medication. I don't think that's healthy anyway. But you have to speak up soon to someone you trust and talk about it. Someone older and can give you guidance. Then you can clear your head and be strong for yourself and your mom. To ask someone for help with your mental being is not weak, its not asking for attention to get yourself back on track. If you feel overwhelmed with the things going on, of course it is going to effect you mentally. And another thing, don't care what people think because it's all about you taking care of your mind. It is absolutely nothing wrong with that. But please, for yourself, go and talk to someone. But I hope your mom can find a school for you. I hope things can get better for you!