God nobody is taking care of me, I feel jesus is against me

Dear God,

The time you have left me or where you have gone I dont know, muslims are happy by saying you died but I know you will never die.

Jesus is always in my mind and listen to my thoughts what I think and dream but never find out why I think and thought like what I think because people believe in me forcely and put porn stuff in my stomach and force me to become bad by believing in me and jesus never find out truth as I feel he doesnt know truth. I love jesus but he never finds out truth and he thinks I think on my own, its people who are believing in me and giving me thoughts and bad thinking with which everyone dislikes me but you are turning those disliking into likings and I am waiting to find you.

I need your help god where are you now I am missing you.

Please take care of me.

Your Love.
Asked Feb 23, 2016
Edited Feb 23, 2016

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