Someone please give a advice:( I'm a young guy with hardly any friends and I have no one to even talk to for advice. Recently I lost the love of my life, I have been with many girls and dated many hoping for them to be the perfect one and I never found it. When I gave up hope and thought, that's it.. No more relationships or dates, I'm just going to wait till my soul mate finds me, and she sure did. I never felt this way about anyone before in my entire life, she is so gorgeous, got my humour, we could sit in a room all day and not get bored of each other's company and be full of conversation and we could talk for hours on end, be so open with each other and be passionately comfortable. My point is, I love this girl with all my heart, we planned for a future and everything was so perfect. But my past life of girls has impacted our relationship drastically, I'm not blaming it all on my past, but it has a big part in it. One girl I loved that I was with for two years nearly, she lied to me all the time. Messed with my head on a daily basis and I found out she cheated on me with her ex. I was distraught, and the way my mind is currently thinking... Hey, she's the dream girl everyone would want, and your ex was nothing special. Who's to say she won't do the dirty on me too? My paranoia got the worst of me and caused us to argue, slowly go off with each other. And when we argued I said some nasty pointless crap that fuelled a fire more and more, we went on a few breaks and came back together a few times but it's always ended with my stupidity ruining it when we'd argue. About 1 week ago, we had a fall out, she told me she had had enough and we split. I spoke to her today and she told me there is no way we can get back together due to how I treated her and the accusations, then she told me that she's kissed someone else at a party just 6 days after we split. I'm annoyed but I didn't show it, and I don't blame her as I've pushed her to do it, but honestly it is eating away at me. She said she regrets doing it as it was quite early to do something like that, but she doesn't regret it as she wanted to drill it into her head that we are finished. I know she loves me, we've been through a lot together over the past year. But this is it, if there was a possibility I could get her back, I would change my ways totally as this has been the kick up the backside and woke me up to how I am, she said she will be there for me and she won't get with anyone etc whilst we get over each other, so basically get used to being friends and not in a relationship. So here's the question. How could I get get back? What can I do? I can't let this go because this will affect me for the rest of my life. I can't let her be the girl that got away. Any advice on what to do at all, please tell me. Thank you for taking your time in reading this.