Why dosen't my mother understand me?

I've stayed home from school a lot this past year. I've made up every excuse to stay home. I bent my moms trust until it broke. Why? Because of my anxiety. It's so bad, that I get sick to my stomach just thinking about going into school... Crowds of people scare me. And no one seams to understand what it's like. Expecially my mother. She tells me to suck it up, that I only have five days left of school, but ever second being in that building makes me freak out. I had bad anxiety attacks. And my mom thinks its nothing more then an excuse. I've tried so hard to get her to understand how I feel, but every time her response is to to call the cops on me, and try to kick me out. Just because I won't go to school. I'm trying other options, I'm going to get my GED in the fall... I'm not lazy, it's not like I just don't care enough to go. It's that... I have panick attacks every time I think of being there. In a place with so many people. Walking in the hallways back to back with people that I don't know, unable to go any faster because there's the hallway is clogged I freak out.

How do I get her to uderstand? She refuses to bring me to a doctor, every time I bring it up she immaturely makes the 'jacking off' motion and calls me a 'cunt.' And a 'liar.' And its killing me because I'm not lying... It's literally like the boy who cried wolf. I put up so many excuses that she dosen't beleive me. But this is real, it's gotten so bad that as soon as I wake up, an that first thought goes through my head. I'm already shaking. Why is it so bad? I've tried therapy... It makes it worse though. Being in a room with a person I hardly know... Talking to the about my problems.. It scares me.

How do I get her to understand that it's REALLY a problem? Because she won beleive me... And I'm tired of her acting so immature about it.

I'm 18. A legal adult. But don't feel like an adult. Not yet. My moms been depended on me for my SS checks since my dad passed away. Every day I don't go to school is a a chance they could take our money away. She's 58, and unemployed. She depends on me for money, I'm the ONLY sorce of income In this house... And I hate it.
I didnt ask for it. I'm so scared I don't know what to do.

Please help. In any way shape or form... Advice, anything.
Asked Jun 08, 2015
I am so sorry for your situation. There are many people who are going through a similar situation. I saw something that I hope you find helpful it was found on www.jw.org. This website has many articles that talk out anxiety and how to cope. I hope you take the time to go to it. But this is just one of the ones I found:

What you can do
Question the reasonableness of your anxiety. “Being concerned about your responsibilities is one thing; being overly anxious is another. It reminds me of the saying, Anxiety is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it doesn’t get you anywhere.”—Katherine.
The Bible says: “Who of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his life span?”—Matthew 6:27.

What this means: Unless anxiety leads you toward a solution, it will only add to your problem—or become your problem.

Take things one day at a time. “Think it through. Will what you are anxious about matter tomorrow? in a month? in a year? in five years?”—Anthony.
The Bible says: “Never be anxious about the next day, for the next day will have its own anxieties. Each day has enough of its own troubles.”—Matthew 6:34.

What this means: It makes little sense to take on tomorrow’s problems—some of which may never even become a reality.

Learn to live with what you cannot change. “The best you can do is prepare for situations to the extent possible, but accept the fact that some situations are out of your control.”—Robert.
The Bible says: “The swift do not always win the race, . . . nor do those with knowledge always have success, because time and unexpected events overtake them all.”—Ecclesiastes 9:11.

What this means: Sometimes you cannot change your circumstances, but you can change the way you view them.

Put your situation in perspective. “I find that I have to focus on the big picture and not stress over the details. I have to choose my battles and channel my energy into taking care of priorities.”—Alexis.
The Bible says: “Make sure of the more important things.”—Philippians 1:10.

What this means: People who put their anxieties in perspective are less likely to be overwhelmed by them.

Talk to someone. “When I was in the sixth grade, I would come home from school very anxious, dreading the next day. My mother and father would just listen to me as I expressed myself. It was so good to have them there. I could trust them and speak freely to them. It helped me to face the next day.”—Marilyn.
The Bible says: “Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs it down, but a good word cheers it up.”—Proverbs 12:25.

What this means: A parent or a friend might be able to give you practical suggestions on how to reduce your anxiety.

Pray. “Praying—and doing so aloud so I can hear my voice—helps me. It allows me to vocalize what I am anxious about instead of keeping it in my head. It also helps me to realize that Jehovah is greater than my anxiety.”—Laura.
The Bible says: “Throw all your anxiety on [God], because he cares for you.”—1 Peter 5:7.

What this means: Prayer is not a mental trick. It is real communication with Jehovah God, who promises: “Do not be anxious, for I am your God. I will fortify you, yes, I will help you.”—Isaiah 41:10.
Answered Jun 08, 2015

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