Why does every attempt at success get harbingered by sabatogers from me?

It seems I can't achieve lasting success without it being destroyed and people starting hate campaigns and deciding to hate against me for any little success I achieve or wish to achieve. I've done nothing wrong to really deserve this. God rightfully punishes me by turning others into beast like monsters whenever I self harm but it seems god doesn't want me to feel ok because when I come clean I end up getting tired of life and then self harming again because I was tired of life I don't know if I deserved to be ignored in the beginning
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Asked May 10, 2015
Edited May 10, 2015

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