Someone please help just need an opinions

Ok so, I'm 22 from England and female.
I first started doing cocaine when I was 14 then got into mkat which was leegal At the time and started doing pills till I wa about 17.then. I stopped went to college bla bla..
21 I started taking drugs again, MDMA I tried for the first time it was great but then this year I've pretty much done it every weekend. Constantly on pills always talking about pills, thinking about pills. I'm in and out of jobs I have quit two jobs this year because my come downs were to bad. I've sold gold from my dead grandparents for pills and I've took out loans. I just like being high and as far away from reality as possible. The only reason why I want a job is so I can get high on the weekend. I know my head is messed up because my thought process isn't normal and I take things to heart a lot an tell my mum an dad that they don't love me to make them feel bad but I don't know why. I keep saying one more weekend and I'll give it a rest but still every Sunday I find my self high like fuck I done it again.

Not sure if I'm just having fun or If I'm being silly with it now. I don't want to say any of this out loud because then it becomes true.

Also we smoked cocaine at the weekend isn't that crack? What's going on lol!
Asked Oct 29, 2014
Edited Oct 30, 2014
I think you need to talk to a doctor or therapist. You need some help controlling this and I think that's the best thing for you. Talk to your parents and permanently stop and reward yourself or havd a friend reward you by not doing it. The reward cDNA be getting high either. You won't be able to get a job because you don't pass the drug test. Get addicted to fruit or healthy things. I really do hope this helped and please actually something.
Answered Oct 30, 2014
Thank you, I'm going to do something about it. Thank you x
You're welcome :-) My mom is a nurse practitioner so I know lots of stuff like that and how to treat it. Basically that's what she would say but in a more sophisticated way.
NoneYa Oct 30, 2014
I think you should think seriously about the question "why do you take pills?"
Is it because depression, pressure, peer pressure(I think this is not the factor in this case) or other things? If you suffer from any mental problems, just feel free to talk to others and seek help.
It's hard not to take pills once you're addicted to it, but you have to find a way to get through it. I don't have this experience but I think you can find a friend or a partner to go through this journey with you. This will help you much. Xx
Answered Dec 08, 2014
I take them because I like being high. I love the person I become when I'm on the everyone buzzes off me and I like the feeling of giving someone else a buzz. I like being away from reality. After my come downs imthinking about the next event. Where I can take pills and if there isn't one booked I have to find one.

I dunno I don't even know what to do anymore
Hey, I'm in the same boat as you. Same age, gender and problem. I do drugs because I'm lonely and depressed. I'm surrounded by friends and family but I can't connect to any of them. They just don't understand. Speaking to people who do drug but don't wanna get on it at every opportunity helps. It helps put it into perspective. If your questioning whether you want to do this anymore, then you probably don't. If it's regular thing then it's habit that's triggered by certain things and people. Try breaking this cycle and see if you still feel the same. You should also talk to your GP because the sooner they know the sooner they can help you if and when you want help. I wish you all the best and hope you get to where you wanna be soon.
Answered Mar 11, 2015

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