Ok I'm a Counselor (gay I might add) who has worked for 10+ years with all youths from all backgrounds. At 15, and as a male, there's the whole "hormone" thing going on. God how I miss 15! When I was 15 (I'm 43 now) so back when dinosaurs roamed, I knew I liked guys. By 13 I had already had sex with another guy. So I was ok with identifying as being gay. So the point here is "what are you ok with in this situation?" It's perfectly fine to like both. To have "feelings" for your guy friend and your female friend are absolutely normal :) There's nothing wrong with being sexually aroused by either or :) Sex doesn't mean "labels" sex is more about whatever YOU define it as. One week guys may be a turn on, and then suddenly, their not. What's wonderful about sex, is it's fun, it sure feels great and your 15, so enjoy it! I'd personally be flattered that both a guy and a girl found me hot! So bottom line, don't limit yourself by "labeling" you orientation. Your free to just be YOU additionally the older you get, you'll be able to formulate your own ideas more clearly. With your hormones being in overdrive, I've found it's better to just "enjoy" . As you get older your views on life, sex, etc become jaded based on your earlier life experiences. Don't limit yourself to either guys or girls, be free to be you. Also, talk to a trusted friend, and see what they say. I tend to view issues on sexuality very openly and I also tend to not label my life or my experiences as this or that. Fully experience YOUR LIFE as YOU desire. Screw everyone else. You are in control of every aspect of your life, including who you love, who & what turns you on, who you express emotions to, who you have sex with, how to have sex (yes, there's lots of fun different things to do with both your guy friend and female friend) you call the shots! Sex is also more than just the acts themselves, and don't get me wrong, I luv em, but there also about YOU personally. So many teens and even adults are told that what turns them on sexually or even romantically (kissing, holding hands, those cute emails, a nice gesture) a hug, a smile, that these 100% normal (wonderful) feelings are "sick" "perverted" or "sinful" (I won't even go up that road!) when in FACT there not. Americans are to often "prudish" on sexual matters, especially adolescent sex matters. These "prudish" rules only harm. Adolescents are by your vert nature sexual. There's nothing wrong when 2 young people learn to enjoy each other sexually and romantically. Don't turn your guy friend away. He's your friend and he has feelings for you. Both of you should "enjoy" this friendship in all aspects. That he wants to be sexual with you and from what you wrote, you enjoyed being sexual with him, then why give it up? Is it "love"? Maybe. But it's purely sexual for sure, nothing wrong with that :) If you can be honest with him, tell him how you truly feel, about him, about being sexual with him. And likewise, talk to your female friend. Tell her what's going on. If she freaks, which she may or may not, then at least you'll know. Don't label yourself. You are who you choose to be. As for your parents, I know the reaction issue. My father freaked when he walked in on as I was blowing the Quarterback of the football team, and we were both butt naked! Parents react for many different reasons. Again, sex between 2 boys is not discussed AT ALL because it's considered taboo or pervy. Sex between 2 (or more) teen guys is a lot more frequent than they know. Adolescence is a fabulous time for sexual exploration. But, sex in general, is taboo. Especially sex between guys. What happened that night is NORMAL and I hope you had fun. When it's a friend, then yes your friendship changes. Hopefully for good. Don't let what happened ruin your friendship. Remember, he's just as "confused". Have a VERY HONEST BLUNT private discussion with him. He wants you as a BF, how do you feel about that? Adult men (regardless of orientation, perceived or actual) have guy fuck buddies where the only interest is SEX why not explore that option? If men can do it, so can you. But please don't brush your friend aside. He sounds great and to ignore him is well, not right. So good luck :)
Ron Campbell
Counselor