This is my story:
When I was very young (6 year old girl) I had a very special person with who I wanted to play the most and spend more time with.
That person was my first cousin and he was only 4 years older than me. He used to defend me when the kids were attacking me in
school because of the fact that I was very shy and didn’t talk to them. Probably they thought that I was dumb. And he was always
there to defend me and telling me that I shouldn’t listen to those kids because they are still under developed and that I was much
smarter than those kids. He was kind of like my hero. And when I asked him: “how come you’re always near, and why are you
defending me?” He said: “You are my little cousin. I can’t stand someone insulting you, and remember you are very smart girl and
a very cute one. Please don’t listen that kids anymore” He was so good to me, I loved him like an older brother. A couple years
his parents decide to sent him in other country and there to continue his studies. I cried a lot that day just because of him I remember
that like it was yesterday. But before he left he told me to stop crying because he will come back again to his family.
It passed so many years. I’m 22 now and everybody says that I’ve change so much (in a physical way) that I suddenly became a swan
from ugly duckling. I can feel that not because they are telling me, it’s because now they are more interested in having conversations and
spend more time with me. I feel very empty because all they can see in me is my look, appearance and not the real me. I’m not a shallow
person I see beyond that.
One day after many years in a foreign country, my cousin came back. When I saw him, I didn’t recognized him at first and even asked him
“who are you?” because he was so changed physically. He is now much taller and masculine, he is handsome, blond with blue eyes. But what
I liked the most about him is that he is the same person when he was 10. He is good to people, fights when see injustice, works very hard to
achieve his goal and like to spend his free time helping me with my exams and teasing me.
But one day when he was helping me with my homework, said that he must say to me something that is very important to him.
And he told me what I never aspect – that he is in love with me. I was shocked and very scared I couldn’t even move, but somehow
I came in my mind and escaped from him.
Whenever I see him I’m going far away from him and I try it to be not very noticeable because I don’t want my father to think that
something it’s not right because he knows how closer I’m with my cousin, I have two other cousins – his brothers but my father trust the most
to him because he was always protecting me when I was a little girl. And it would be suspicious if he sees that I’m avoiding him.
One day my cousin offered me to take me home with his car when he saw me in the street. I said no. But he told me that sreet was very
dangerous and that is very dark and because of that he can’t leave me to go by myself. I stopped for a second because he was right and
I deside to go with him. When we arrived he closed the doors and grabbed me behind my neck and telling me that he loves me and want to be
more intimate with me. I started to cry and got so scared, first because I’ve lost him (my cousin who I loved so much) and second because
he’s having not good thoughts about me, and he see me like an object of his desire. My own cousin wants me to have intercourse with him.
I never had a boyfriend and I’ve never been intimate with someone so when I think of that I’m so scared. Also he kissed me, but not like a cousin.
It was more of the way he want me to kiss him.It was so long, I tried to turn my head but he was so strong and it was my first kiss.
When he stopped I told him that was wrong and he shouldn’t did that, but he wasn’t listening to me, and he was begging me to give him a chance.
I don’t know what to do. He is not thinking of me like his little cousin anymore. He’s so changed
And I won’t tell this to nobody,because I can’t keep this to my self anymore that’s why I ask a good advice
Anonymous User
Asked Sep 01, 2010
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Hey, I know how you feel. We're the same my close cousin also love me but he got married with his wife and since then he still love me, we get along well... This happen when me and my cousins when so disco, we start to dance and We hold hands like soul mate I thought it was cousin holding few minutes later his bracelet and my clubbing dress hock together and he told me we meant for each other, and I was shock! I don't know what to say.
Honey Feb 28, 2013
