I think there's something wrong with me

I've been through a lot in my life. Abandonment, mental abuse, anger issues, etc. Recently the man who raised and adopted me, passed away and at first there was immense pain but now I feel nothing. I can always remember that whenever I felt too much pain that I couldn't handle it, I would focus on suppressing it so I don't feel it at all and that seems to be exactly what's happened. Honestly, I don't think this is normal and I'd like an opinion.
Asked Aug 04, 2017

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