I had a sex dream about my dad? Is this normal?

Okay, so I'm going to try to state all my thoughts here.

First and foremost, I'm disgusted with myself.

Second, the dream- It was consensual. In the dream. Both ways. I don't remember much of it now, but it was almost a pornographic scenario? A hidden tryst from 'mom.'

Third, I can't look at him the same way since the dream. I just hope I forget it at some point, or learn to forget it.

Fourth- Did I mention I'm fucking disgusted with myself? Like, I know that it was subconscious, but the fact that I would consent to that subconsciously actually makes me want to cry.

Fifth- I haven't self harmed in a while. Almost a year. This makes me want to, but I don't want to 'break the streak.'

Sixth- I'm so, so afraid to tell anyone about this. Even my therapist.

How do you forget something like that? How do you distract yourself? I mean, I know I have a high sex drive. I'm single, and a virgin, whatever. And I know that my dad and I aren't super close, and I've read all the articles saying that 'Psycogically I want to get closer to my dad' but now I can't because I feel weird being around him? How do I distract myself? Do I turn to hypnosis or some shit? What's wrong with me?
Asked Jan 19, 2017

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