I'm really scared and I need someone to help me, please!

For about two and a half years now, I've been head over heels in love with this guy, whose name is Ethan. I've always been a shy person, fortunately no where near as much as I was when I was a kid, but it's still there, mainly because I had it rough growing up. My mother neglected me, and I was scared of my dad because he could get violent. I was teased in school all the time, and blah blah blah. I am insecure, I realize that, and that's probably why I never told Ethan how I feel. At first it was kind of a puppy love type of situation. I just saw him around every once in a while, and got to know his personality that way. I thought he was goofy, funny, and so charismatic. It really took me by surprise. By no means did I expect to become attracted to him, never mind develop something serious for him. Now, we hang out, and we're really good friends. All of my insecurities seem to go away when I'm with Ethan. He makes me feel comfortable, safe, and happy. (We're both adults in our twenties, by the way, but he is a bit older than me. Just saying, in case anyone was wondering) He's been in love before, whereas I haven't. This is all new to me and it scares me. Ethan is this amazing man. He's crazy, he's so loving and caring. He has the biggest heart. He's adventurous, charming, daring, gentle, respectful, generous. He is strong in every sense of the word. He didn't have it easy growing up. He deserves happiness, and I want to give him that. I love him. It's as simple as that. No sparkle words to over-explain my feelings for him. I care about him. He is the most amazing person I've ever known. I want to be there for him, help him with any struggle, or problem. I want to be kind of like his cheerleader, I guess you can say, but that probably sounds more like a mother's love, right? I don't mean to make it sound that way. We make each other laugh and we get each other. There's a big problem, though. He VERY recently got back together with his ex. The reason they broke up in the first place, is because they were both too busy for a relationship. Now, they're back together. They have been friends. Actually, this girl and Ethan's sister are best friends, so Ethan's girlfriend had an advantage. Trust me. He's not cheating on his girlfriend with anyone, myself included, and I don't want him to. I don't want to be the other woman or the rebound girl. I will say this: His girlfriend is the wrong one for him. Before you ho thinking I'm obsessive or possessive, hear me out. This girl is a total skank. She doesn't know what she wants when it comes to guys, all she wears are skimpy outfits, and all she wants is attention. She's your typical popular girl that all the guys love because she's fake and puts on an act just so people will like her. I can't talk to Ethan about it, though, because it's not my place to meddle. I just can't stand to see him with someone like her. It hurts me to see him giving all his attention to someone like that. I don't know what to do. I want what's best for Ethan. He deserves a girl who's real and knows what she wants. It doesn't have to be me, no matter how badly I want it to be. I just want to see him truly happy with a girl who knows what she has when it comes to him, treats him right, and doesn't act like she's the damn queen of everything. Okay, yes, I know I'm jealous. I just don't know what to do. I can't just let him go and move on, especially without knowing he'll be okay. I know he's a grown man, I just can't help but worry about him. I care about him so much. Yes, it scares me to know I may never be with him. It's my fault for getting my own hopes up and imagining a future with Ethan. I've never felt this way before. I think I'll be okay, to see him truly happy, I guess I'm just afraid that I'll never get over him. I've heard you never get over your first. It truly scares me. I can't tell Ethan how I feel, and I can't just let him go. I've spent two and a half years of my life caring about this man. He'll always be special and mean something to me. I'm just terrified and don't know how to deal with this predicament. Any advice would be MUCH appreciated. Thank you!
Zabeeality
Asked Sep 19, 2014
You need to tell him how you feel about the other girl! Do it or you'll lose your chance. If you are friends then he'll hear you out on your feelings about Her. If he agrees, maybe they'll break up. If they do, then tell him how you feel. Be sure not to seem jealous or mischievios, though
Frenchfrylover
Answered Jul 03, 2015
Edited Jul 03, 2015
Hello, I have read ur story and it was very touching. I don't know if you would like to cast a spell on him to love you the way you do forever,here is his email address [email protected] he helped me long ago bye.....,
Tricia04
Answered Jul 03, 2015

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