I am hurt, and I do not know if my crush likes me like that

Hello, my crush and I have been friends for 2 years now ( I only know him on the internet weird, right?) I have told him in the past how I felt about him and I asked if he felt the same way and he said "no not at all" and I pretended to be happy and I was heartbroken, the second time it seemed like he took it as a joke. After talking and talking for months, we started having internet sex and I have counted how many times we had phone sex: 3 times. And after the third time and weeks after, he called me "baby" because I was kind of being depressed ( my emotions keep changing, I don't know what it is) and he was like "ohno bby ;-; *hugs*" and I was shocked. Im kind of hurt because I want to be in a relationship with him soooooo bad and I want him... but I dont know and my love life seems worthless now. I hate having to have sexual desires and having to have my mind give me a image of us in a relationship and not really be in a relationship. I suffered with depression before and I have been crying for 2 nights now because I thought I wasn't good enough ( still kind of feel that way) this isn't normal for a girl to be like this. Im seriously in love with this guy...please help me.. on what should I do.

Try avoiding having phone sex just a little and try to get personal with him. If he doesn't live too far maybe you two can meet up and hang out and really have fun. He might have feelings for you, then again you might not be the only girl he talks to on the internet.