Hello, my crush and I have been friends for 2 years now ( I only know him on the internet weird, right?) I have told him in the past how I felt about him and I asked if he felt the same way and he said "no not at all" and I pretended to be happy and I was heartbroken, the second time it seemed like he took it as a joke. After talking and talking for months, we started having internet sex and I have counted how many times we had phone sex: 3 times. And after the third time and weeks after, he called me "baby" because I was kind of being depressed ( my emotions keep changing, I don't know what it is) and he was like "ohno bby ;-; *hugs*" and I was shocked. Im kind of hurt because I want to be in a relationship with him soooooo bad and I want him... but I dont know and my love life seems worthless now. I hate having to have sexual desires and having to have my mind give me a image of us in a relationship and not really be in a relationship. I suffered with depression before and I have been crying for 2 nights now because I thought I wasn't good enough ( still kind of feel that way) this isn't normal for a girl to be like this. Im seriously in love with this guy...please help me.. on what should I do.