All I've ever wanted is someone to love.

I'm almost 26 and I'm on disability for my Bi-polar along with various other illnesses. All I've ever wanted was to be happy and so far, these past 26 years, it's been miserable. I've finally found someone who I love and who loves me. He's patient, kind, and keeps me laughing. I just wish we could get married. I'm horribly depressed because being on disability, if I marry him one day I will loose my benefits. All I've ever wanted in my life is to find someone to share me life with. If I want to stay on my disability I will never get married. When I think of never being married I just want to curl up and die. I'm the type of person who needs the companionship. I need someone by my side and I need to know they will always be there. In this world words are not enough. To some people signing a piece of paper isn't worth anything, but to me it is. It means you promise, no matter what, that you love someone, that you will be there for that person and care for them. It's a promise. I simply can not live without love but I can not work which means I can not afford to loose my benefits which means I never get my life long dream... I suppose I don't really have a question, I just need some advice, some direction.

don't worry honey just wait if he loves you he will ask you to marry him you just need to give him time