Am I being paranoid or should I stop blaming myself.


Ive recently broken up with my girlfriend.
After a long time of irritations and frustrations from both sides we decided enough was enough. It got even easier when she said she couldnt be bothered with me anymore.

However, right now I feel like ive never appreciated her as much as she deserved and I feel this break up is a normal reaction to that. Very early in the relationship I started getting irritated with her beauty, intelligence etc.

Now I feel like I tried to change someone who was very nice to me to someone who isnt.

I fear I'll never get with someone as pretty again (believe me she is like model-pretty) and I fear that I will keep these non appreciative thoughts in any future relations??

What to do, she doesnt want to see nor hear from me anymore and I dont blame her, ive been an ***. I just feel like I messed up something rlly good by not appreciating what I had. I worry I will not get it back.

I not saying Im a bad person, on the contrary Im always liked, I just was to her.

I fear I let the most beautifull girl go bc I couldnt appreciate who she was (wich isnt perfect but really who is)??
Asked Jun 17, 2014
Edited Jun 17, 2014

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