I am a straight girl, but I am in love with my straight girl best friend. Help?

I am 14, almost 15 years old. This girl, Katie, and I have been best friends for about 1 1/2 to 2 years. This time last year Katie and I were playing basketball for our school, and one day during the season as we were watching a lower grade play before our game our team decided, for some odd reason, to pair up and have "girlfriends". Yeah I know it's odd but beside the point. So I of course paired up with her. Katie is a real big Christian, she goes to church every Sunday even if that means missing a sports game, and she is against gay marriage and isn't technically a homophobe but some what of the idea. So as our basketball season went on we pretended to date as did the rest of our team and we would joke around and hold hands and a fake slow dance together and we would cuddle and hold hands during sleepovers, but we were the only ones to do that, and it made everybody jealous, honestly. But it kind of wore off after a while because no one else was doing it and we started to have our little arguments here and there. But we still loved each other. And then one day this girl that Katie and I were both friends with but me and her didnt really get along decided to say that I had a literal girl crush on Katie. I was completely shocked that she confronted me, and I denyed it of course, and then I began to question if it was true. So this girl ended up moving to a different school, and now I am in my freshman year of high school, I have 3 classes with Katie and 2 of them we sit there and talk the whole time. We dwindle our fingers and she plays with my hair and that's about it. Anyways, the whole point of this big long story is that I will probably never be able to tell her how I feel and that I still like boys and she prevents me from completely liking the boys that I talk to because I'm so in love with her. I don't know what to do. I know she likes me even if its just a little but probably not as much as I like her. I try to distance myself and not make it obvious but every time I turn around in my seat and see her smile at me I just fall in love all over again.
Alsmith
Asked Aug 24, 2013
Well, first off...if you're actually in love with another girl I'm not sure you can consider yourself straight. As for the actual problem...I think the best thing you can do is talk seriously to her about it. If you really love her then you need to discuss it properly with her and make sure that you can actually go for it. And if you can go for it, then do it. Worst case scenario is that she gets grossed out and scared off, but that's still better than torturing yourself like this more.
whocares
Answered Aug 24, 2013
Well you are in a real muddle here aren't you. The best thing that you could do is to tell Katie that you have feelings for her and that you are really scared about this. That should sort you two out :)
Kony2012
Answered Aug 24, 2013

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