Dont know if im gay or bi, I hate this

IM 28, ive always had sexual attractions to both female and male, I dated a girls for 4 years and loved her deeply we broke up and I was extremly hurt., but now im just confused, I like girls but not as sexually attractive as guys, yet the one time I was with a guy I almost threw up, my bonner went away,,, I hate being f,ing 28 and not knowing what I am!!! plus the bitch of my ex left me scared and im incapable of getting close to anyone..... some one please help...

thanks

I think your bi, just not used to being bi, so it has a negative reaction.