Feel like killing myself :(

Okay guys this is going to be an essay but here my story..
March Last Year I Was hanging Around With This Girl alot Spending A Hell Of A Lot Of Time together , we Always Used To Play Fight And light Flirting Then We Started To Get Alot Closer Shed come And Stay in My Room At College And We'd Cuddle Whilst Watching Films And Hold Hands It Went A Few Weeks like That till I Actually Realised I Really Liked Her And I Had Never Looked At A Girl Like That I Always Thought I Was Straight But I Found My Self Walking Around The Common Room Aimlessly waiting To See Her, It Became Part Of My Day That I had to See Her to feel Complete Eventually I Plucked Up The Currage And Told Her That I Liked Her She really Freaked Out And Was Not Interested In Me Like That So I Went Home For a Week And She Missed me When I got Back She Asked Me Out And We'Ve Been Together For A Year Now. But 9 Months Ago We Decided for Her To Move In with Me And my Family (300Miles Away From Her family Home) So We Could Save Up For Our Own Place. But now Her Mum is Not well At Home And She Has To Go Back - I Feel Like I Am going to Fall Apart with Out her I Depend On her She Makes My Life worth Living. I am Scared We Are Going to Fazzle Out Because I Am Nothing Without Her.

I Can'T Go With Her Just Yet As Financial Issues

I don'T know How To Cope With long distance. Can Someone please Help Me???

You can talk to folks at www.crisischat.org. They're great at listening as much as you want.

Before my husband and I got married, we lived 3000 miles apart for about 3 years. It made our relationship -- and our communication skills -- stronger. It can be done.

I do have to say that your attachment to her sounds co-dependent and extremely unhealthy. No one else should be the center of your world. It's just NOT healthy. I strongly recommend you talk to a therapist about that, and work to not be so dependent on any external factor to make your life worth living. A drug addict could write the same things you wrote about their vice of choice. Anytime you want to harm yourself over another person, it's a sign that you need serious help to get back on track. The distance might be good for you, if you can learn to be a whole person as a result.

Here's a ton of long-distance relationship tips from my really long answer to a similar question:
http://www.ehelp.com/questions/10443064/how-do-you-keep-a-relationship-going-with-someone-who-lives-in-a-whole-other-to