I have a ginormous crush on my best friend. Actually, with that crush I confirmed I am a lesbian.
The other day we were talking about loves, and the relationship topic came out, and I told her I am a lesbian.
Last night, she found out that I had a crush on her because someone told her. She asked me, and I knew there was no going back, and I confirmed it. She told me she was okay with it, but she also told me she was straight.
Now here's the deal: people told me to forget her, that she is straight and all, that I should do a "list" of the ideal girl I want that is actually a lesbian. Before I met her, I did have a list, and practically everything that is on that piece of paper is in her. I once tried to focus my attention on other girls, but there was an incident with one that I thought I had a mini crush on, so I'm scared of doing that again.
I actually think that this ha gone further than just being a crush, and that I am actually in love with her. It's not a crush, I had one before, but this time is different. She makes me feel bigger than a razor (I self harm). And no one else can do that. I feel like the world is going to end if I don't see her, hearing her voice became as vital as breathing. People say I have to forget her, but I just simply can't. As I said, its more than a crush.
What can I do?
The other day we were talking about loves, and the relationship topic came out, and I told her I am a lesbian.
Last night, she found out that I had a crush on her because someone told her. She asked me, and I knew there was no going back, and I confirmed it. She told me she was okay with it, but she also told me she was straight.
Now here's the deal: people told me to forget her, that she is straight and all, that I should do a "list" of the ideal girl I want that is actually a lesbian. Before I met her, I did have a list, and practically everything that is on that piece of paper is in her. I once tried to focus my attention on other girls, but there was an incident with one that I thought I had a mini crush on, so I'm scared of doing that again.
I actually think that this ha gone further than just being a crush, and that I am actually in love with her. It's not a crush, I had one before, but this time is different. She makes me feel bigger than a razor (I self harm). And no one else can do that. I feel like the world is going to end if I don't see her, hearing her voice became as vital as breathing. People say I have to forget her, but I just simply can't. As I said, its more than a crush.
What can I do?
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