OK so this is gonna be long probablly...so to make things cleared I will write main stuff like thin:
- I am 24 years old girl that got crazily attached to guy as soon as I met him (6 months ago). But my reasons why I wanna do what I wanna do are rather complicated. Well not really, I felt so hard for him that now I am so desperate and would do whatever he wants just so I can have him close to me. I know, its fucked up.
BTW, I am totally what u would call 'good girl' and this kinda behavior (mine) can't be stranger to me.
Also I am in wheelchair, I mean not always ofc, but I do use it.
- He is 30 (soon 31) and our/mine table tennis coach. Yeah I know, teacher/student hook up? Pleaseee I wasnt thinking about that in a million years! He is only interested in sex, he is total sleaze, man whore, he has 'girlfriend' (with whom he said he doesnt have ANY emotions beside fucking) and he told me he is sleeping with 6 other girls on the side. Yes I know, pls dont ask me why I wanna hook up with THAT kind of person. Normally, he doesnt believe in love, morals or any kinda emotions. Says love exist ONLY in family (he prob thinks that bc his parents were killed when he was 10. And yes I am aware he might have some issues about intimacy and all bc of that.)
So, one evening (30 march), after practice (when I heard some comments from him about fucking some girls) I couldnt stand any longer, I needed to have some contact with himm, beside friends/about tennis. So I wrote sms to my friend but decided to sent it to him, like 'mistake'. in sms I didnt told anything bout him but I was talking about my ex and how he was....well he wasnt giving me what I need in bed.
And ofc, he was hooked after he read that, just like I knew he would be.... and then that night we started sexting. We were sexting every night from like 2am till 12.april. Then without any reason he stopped for 5 days. Then we had some 'fight' but we resumed sexting on 20.april and were doing it till 27 or so when he stopped.
During sexting, I told him not to write all he would do to me bc its not like he can do it. and he said no he cant, maybe if situation was a bit different, but he always had bad experiences when fuckking friend, and he doesnt wanna ruin our friendship. I was dissapointed but maybe thats best.
So one day I teased him a bit and he is like 'i am gonna screw u so hard one day....' So I guess game was on.
On 24th april, we all have great time, we have decided to have ;practice in caffe' (meaning to sit in caffe together from 4-9pm or something) and we decided to do it 2 times a month.
So we are in super good mood, joking, laughing, like we r drunk and no one had any alcohol. So I start saying to coach something thats bothering me in gym and I know I said 'i dont like that because I am strong and in very good physical shape' and he said to me '....which I can check whenever I want' and grins/laugh like an evil,so evil person. and I am like 'yeah....'
He is so confident, and cooky, and...... uuhh!
So its 26 april. I go to sport center, to stay there 8h like always when I have gym and tennis. I am sitting in caffe alone (i send my friend away bc I was thinking maybe he will come) and then he comes. And 2 other guys. And he is putting all sexual innuendos and stuff. Then he send other guys away so we r alone. He asks me how can I write what I wrote to him, am I crazy? So u can imagine what I wrote if he was supprised lol. He is like 'u really that hot for me?' Im like 'yeah...' I mean why to lye? I cant and I dont wanna. And hes like 'what to do about that then?' I am like 'well nothing...' He is like 'Well, we must do something...' Then in the middle of caffe at SPOTS CENTER he asks me am I horny? Like what if I said 'yes'??? Then he calls my name like 50 times to look at him and then he like grins....he is crazy, he knows what he is doing to me soooooo well. Oh yeah and he always plays with my hair, my ponytail. and I know why.... thats one of the things he likes to do in sex. so I get super horny when he does that (alway in front of friends) and he knows I cant do anything about that.... aggghhh I hate him
When we were sexting that night he said that he so wanted to fuck me today, that he noticed I would reallyyyyy want that..... And I said 'what if I said I was horny at sport center, what then?' and he said he would never again talk with me about that, so not to make me uncomfy.
I was thinking ' we will see....'
then on 28 (day after he stopped sexting) I was hanging in caffe in sport center with friend, waiting to watch game and I look at phone, 2 missed calls from him. hmmmm he never called..... then soon after he comes behind my back and starts playing with my hair. I was with 2 friend. he sits next to me and starts talking all stuff with sexual undertone to it ofc and grining at me....he is like 'do u wanna go to want foodball? its close.' And I knowwww what would happen if I go alone with him and I soooo want it but I am soooo afrain so I said 'cant. waiting game here.'..... he said he and friend were hanging at park so he called me. then he talked on phone with some hook up chick I guess..then he went to other table to watch bc he is always messing with me that I should date one of that friends I was with....
when game was on, very important one, my friends were talking bout politic and we always fight..... so I couldnt watch whole game bc I needed to talk to them....
so at like 1am he sms me saying that I dissapointed him, our team was playing and I was talking about politics....and tryed to turn convo to sexual but he obv.didnt wanted....
2 days ago I sms him at 3am and say 'remember u asked me on practice do I miss u? Yes,very'. And he responded about 4am askking in what sence?'
I think that was day when he went for holidays to visit grandmother in other part of contry and he didnt smsed me since. So on 3rd I was missing him loads so again I wrote sms to friend and sent him, with very good exuse why I made a mistake.
He told me 'hey jasna u made a mistake.' Then I was like 'can u not read this sm pls?' And then he said'i am busy, I dont understand ur mistakes.' But its strange bc in that sms I wrote some things like hoe much I want him, how much I wanna sex with him....
No sms from him since. Do u think he is on power trip bc he KNOWS he has me around little finger? Often when we were sexting he just text me 'Jasna sleep, dont thing about me all the time...' Yeah he knows. And he is only person that has bigger ego then me (wasnt thinking they exist at all.....) He KNOWS he can have me whenever he wants and thats baaaaad.....or he is just not interested anymore? never heard of player who will decline new girl in line of girl that would suck them and let them fuck them........... its not like I EVER mentioned relationship or my feelings (i keep them hidden....)
Should I sms him? wait for him to come to city? Wait to see each other in person? Is it maybe that he is not interested bc he is out of town so he doesnt wanna bother?
So yeah.... also, whenever he send sms I reply almost right away.... I know so dumb...he has me on the freaking hook...
- I am 24 years old girl that got crazily attached to guy as soon as I met him (6 months ago). But my reasons why I wanna do what I wanna do are rather complicated. Well not really, I felt so hard for him that now I am so desperate and would do whatever he wants just so I can have him close to me. I know, its fucked up.
BTW, I am totally what u would call 'good girl' and this kinda behavior (mine) can't be stranger to me.
Also I am in wheelchair, I mean not always ofc, but I do use it.
- He is 30 (soon 31) and our/mine table tennis coach. Yeah I know, teacher/student hook up? Pleaseee I wasnt thinking about that in a million years! He is only interested in sex, he is total sleaze, man whore, he has 'girlfriend' (with whom he said he doesnt have ANY emotions beside fucking) and he told me he is sleeping with 6 other girls on the side. Yes I know, pls dont ask me why I wanna hook up with THAT kind of person. Normally, he doesnt believe in love, morals or any kinda emotions. Says love exist ONLY in family (he prob thinks that bc his parents were killed when he was 10. And yes I am aware he might have some issues about intimacy and all bc of that.)
So, one evening (30 march), after practice (when I heard some comments from him about fucking some girls) I couldnt stand any longer, I needed to have some contact with himm, beside friends/about tennis. So I wrote sms to my friend but decided to sent it to him, like 'mistake'. in sms I didnt told anything bout him but I was talking about my ex and how he was....well he wasnt giving me what I need in bed.
And ofc, he was hooked after he read that, just like I knew he would be.... and then that night we started sexting. We were sexting every night from like 2am till 12.april. Then without any reason he stopped for 5 days. Then we had some 'fight' but we resumed sexting on 20.april and were doing it till 27 or so when he stopped.
During sexting, I told him not to write all he would do to me bc its not like he can do it. and he said no he cant, maybe if situation was a bit different, but he always had bad experiences when fuckking friend, and he doesnt wanna ruin our friendship. I was dissapointed but maybe thats best.
So one day I teased him a bit and he is like 'i am gonna screw u so hard one day....' So I guess game was on.
On 24th april, we all have great time, we have decided to have ;practice in caffe' (meaning to sit in caffe together from 4-9pm or something) and we decided to do it 2 times a month.
So we are in super good mood, joking, laughing, like we r drunk and no one had any alcohol. So I start saying to coach something thats bothering me in gym and I know I said 'i dont like that because I am strong and in very good physical shape' and he said to me '....which I can check whenever I want' and grins/laugh like an evil,so evil person. and I am like 'yeah....'
He is so confident, and cooky, and...... uuhh!
So its 26 april. I go to sport center, to stay there 8h like always when I have gym and tennis. I am sitting in caffe alone (i send my friend away bc I was thinking maybe he will come) and then he comes. And 2 other guys. And he is putting all sexual innuendos and stuff. Then he send other guys away so we r alone. He asks me how can I write what I wrote to him, am I crazy? So u can imagine what I wrote if he was supprised lol. He is like 'u really that hot for me?' Im like 'yeah...' I mean why to lye? I cant and I dont wanna. And hes like 'what to do about that then?' I am like 'well nothing...' He is like 'Well, we must do something...' Then in the middle of caffe at SPOTS CENTER he asks me am I horny? Like what if I said 'yes'??? Then he calls my name like 50 times to look at him and then he like grins....he is crazy, he knows what he is doing to me soooooo well. Oh yeah and he always plays with my hair, my ponytail. and I know why.... thats one of the things he likes to do in sex. so I get super horny when he does that (alway in front of friends) and he knows I cant do anything about that.... aggghhh I hate him
When we were sexting that night he said that he so wanted to fuck me today, that he noticed I would reallyyyyy want that..... And I said 'what if I said I was horny at sport center, what then?' and he said he would never again talk with me about that, so not to make me uncomfy.
I was thinking ' we will see....'
then on 28 (day after he stopped sexting) I was hanging in caffe in sport center with friend, waiting to watch game and I look at phone, 2 missed calls from him. hmmmm he never called..... then soon after he comes behind my back and starts playing with my hair. I was with 2 friend. he sits next to me and starts talking all stuff with sexual undertone to it ofc and grining at me....he is like 'do u wanna go to want foodball? its close.' And I knowwww what would happen if I go alone with him and I soooo want it but I am soooo afrain so I said 'cant. waiting game here.'..... he said he and friend were hanging at park so he called me. then he talked on phone with some hook up chick I guess..then he went to other table to watch bc he is always messing with me that I should date one of that friends I was with....
when game was on, very important one, my friends were talking bout politic and we always fight..... so I couldnt watch whole game bc I needed to talk to them....
so at like 1am he sms me saying that I dissapointed him, our team was playing and I was talking about politics....and tryed to turn convo to sexual but he obv.didnt wanted....
2 days ago I sms him at 3am and say 'remember u asked me on practice do I miss u? Yes,very'. And he responded about 4am askking in what sence?'
I think that was day when he went for holidays to visit grandmother in other part of contry and he didnt smsed me since. So on 3rd I was missing him loads so again I wrote sms to friend and sent him, with very good exuse why I made a mistake.
He told me 'hey jasna u made a mistake.' Then I was like 'can u not read this sm pls?' And then he said'i am busy, I dont understand ur mistakes.' But its strange bc in that sms I wrote some things like hoe much I want him, how much I wanna sex with him....
No sms from him since. Do u think he is on power trip bc he KNOWS he has me around little finger? Often when we were sexting he just text me 'Jasna sleep, dont thing about me all the time...' Yeah he knows. And he is only person that has bigger ego then me (wasnt thinking they exist at all.....) He KNOWS he can have me whenever he wants and thats baaaaad.....or he is just not interested anymore? never heard of player who will decline new girl in line of girl that would suck them and let them fuck them........... its not like I EVER mentioned relationship or my feelings (i keep them hidden....)
Should I sms him? wait for him to come to city? Wait to see each other in person? Is it maybe that he is not interested bc he is out of town so he doesnt wanna bother?
So yeah.... also, whenever he send sms I reply almost right away.... I know so dumb...he has me on the freaking hook...
Asked May 06, 2013
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