Sometimes I jus hate everyone (except for this girl I like) n I jus wanna kill someone, n I jus sometimes get instantl enraged for no reason. and I have a very short fuse, n I get so angry I can FEEL the negative energt JUMPING thru me literally in very powerful surges. it gets hard to control, n the energy jus has a desire to burst out of me in the form of hitting someone so hard tht I break something on them. like its like another force struggling to overtake me, like complete pure rage. n I get mad easily, and it jus gets higher n higher n higher n harder to control. n I have thoughts of killin ppl I don't like. And another side of me comes out if someone at school pisses me off, idc if the techer is there, I will cuss them out so hardcore. jus so loud n destructive n I say the most hurtful things, n I made this dude cry once cuz I cussed him out. n I jus tense up n get ready to fight, n I want to jus fight. then one time it took ppl to hold me back, bcuz if they didn't I think I really wud have killed this guy. but sometimes I feel bad after I go off on someone, but other times I feel like I'm jus giving them what they deserve depending on who they r. n the anger feels so strong. like nothing I ever felt before n I am not being metaphorical, it feels like a huge entity jumping all over me. idt think its normal anger like u have, it feels like a demonic rage. n I am afraid it will jus all overflow one day, but I don't wanna end someone's life.
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