i have been suffering from isolation since the day my Ex-Girlfriend left me, 11 years now.
it was very painful I mean it was for another guy. She rejected him at first but his friend who was her neighbor convinced her to go out with him simply because I don't live in the same she does and he does.
from that day on I lived an isolated life, I dont like to leave my room and often I get depressed, I feel like something was ripped from my heart.
i did my best to fix what she broke, first step was traveling to see what can be fixed but unfortunately returned with nothing. she told me “i'm using my brain, not heart”, second step was choosing Sydney/Australia for my university studies and that was where she moved to study for University. I met her a couple to times but the fear I felt on asking her out was strong...i can tell you during my stay in Aussie saw many girls in and outside the university tried to attract me for example: playing with hair while looking at me, keeping looking at me and smiling and so on but none took my attention.
Oh I forget to tell I still have her pictures inside a locked box of mine with the letters she used to send me but what I don't understand why she haven't asked for the pictures.
Now that I completed my studies and I returned to my country she is once again away from me, I text her asking to marry me and she replied with the exact words “ your joking, right” then I replied “i think I loved the wrong person all those years, Love is Blind”
does that mean she doesn't want me? I'm totally confused because the word “No Way” is often spoken by her like do you talk to him and so on, I mean she just replied saying “Your joking, right?”
later after some months I emailed her asking how is she and she told me that she wants to come to my country “Jordan” but whats behind the visit?
it was very painful I mean it was for another guy. She rejected him at first but his friend who was her neighbor convinced her to go out with him simply because I don't live in the same she does and he does.
from that day on I lived an isolated life, I dont like to leave my room and often I get depressed, I feel like something was ripped from my heart.
i did my best to fix what she broke, first step was traveling to see what can be fixed but unfortunately returned with nothing. she told me “i'm using my brain, not heart”, second step was choosing Sydney/Australia for my university studies and that was where she moved to study for University. I met her a couple to times but the fear I felt on asking her out was strong...i can tell you during my stay in Aussie saw many girls in and outside the university tried to attract me for example: playing with hair while looking at me, keeping looking at me and smiling and so on but none took my attention.
Oh I forget to tell I still have her pictures inside a locked box of mine with the letters she used to send me but what I don't understand why she haven't asked for the pictures.
Now that I completed my studies and I returned to my country she is once again away from me, I text her asking to marry me and she replied with the exact words “ your joking, right” then I replied “i think I loved the wrong person all those years, Love is Blind”
does that mean she doesn't want me? I'm totally confused because the word “No Way” is often spoken by her like do you talk to him and so on, I mean she just replied saying “Your joking, right?”
later after some months I emailed her asking how is she and she told me that she wants to come to my country “Jordan” but whats behind the visit?
Asked Mar 13, 2013
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