My friends found out I self harm, I can't look at them anymore.

I told one of my guy friends that I was still self harming. the next day at school my friends read the text messages. I freaked out and went to the guy I had told he tried to calm me down but I just walked away. I text him to come sit with me and instead my 2 friends came and I got up and started to walk away and they stoped me but then we just say there is silence and they were saying stupid things, like oh look at that thing. It was so awkward. it's been about 5weeks and I can't look at them, every time they come close to me I freak out and I feel like running. should I just forget about them or Should I try to fix things? they have tried to walk and talk to me but I find an excuse to get away from them :/. the weird thing is before they found out, I keep thinking of ways that I could slowly drift from them, and I don't miss talking and hanging out other them. what should I do? please help

Just trust your friends. Its good they know you self harm so they can help you feel better and make you stop self-harming. I would advice you not to self harm but to open up and speak up about things bothering you so others can help you. Do not be so shy and introverted but trust the good people around you like your friends and family.