To make a decently long story decently short; I had 2 years sober (from alcohol and other substances) in September 2011 but then relapsed soon after that. And to be honest I only stayed sober as a bargaining tool so I could still live with my mom. Anyways, when I relapsed I fell hard and fast to a desperate bottom. I suffer(<-dislike that term but can't think of another way to phrase it) from bipolar and severe depressions also, so the alcohol and drugs definately worsened that. So I got help-again-and I was in a great place but then a couple events really shook things up (my best friend passed away from an overdose and then a few weeks after that I was asked to leave the halway house I was at). So I came back to my mom's, and now I'm back to feeling ambivalent to sobriety, being a hermit, and just feeling like I'm floating along. I was wondering if anybody had any advice on this, I don't want to come across as whiney, I'm honestly lost and would appreciate some form of guidance.