A friend and I were thinking about booking onto a holiday with a group of our other friends, and after having a serious think about my finances I decided I couldn't afford it.
I'm having a fairly rough time at the moment - I'm really struggling with depression, I've had drop out of university and drastically reduce my hours at work to help myself get back on my feet.
So adding the stress of saving up money for a week of 'fun' when I'm struggling to pay my rent doesn't exactly seem to be the kindest thing to do to myself atm.
And now my friend is ignoring me. We usually text one another all throughout the day, speak on facebook, talk on the phone and are generally in contact with one another almost all the time.
I looked at her facebook and I can see that she's been updating status' all week.
So I know that when she isn't replying to my texts or fb wall posts its because she is ignoring me. She's even dismissing the silly things we usually text each other like pictures of new manicures, jokes and general banter like that.
And I'm particularly shocked especially as she constantly tells me that she's always here for me, and she knows everything I'm struggling to get through. I feel like she knows how much I'll be panicking about her not speaking to me. And in the text I'd sent her saying I couldn't come on holiday with everyone I apologised for letting her down, but on second thoughts I know I'm not letting anyone down. But this silence is making me feel as though I am. I feel like I've been punched in the face.
It's not like there won't be other holidays. Right now just isn't the right time for me. But the fact that. I feel so hurt and I feel like she's punishing me for something that I don't have any control of at the minute.
I'm having a fairly rough time at the moment - I'm really struggling with depression, I've had drop out of university and drastically reduce my hours at work to help myself get back on my feet.
So adding the stress of saving up money for a week of 'fun' when I'm struggling to pay my rent doesn't exactly seem to be the kindest thing to do to myself atm.
And now my friend is ignoring me. We usually text one another all throughout the day, speak on facebook, talk on the phone and are generally in contact with one another almost all the time.
I looked at her facebook and I can see that she's been updating status' all week.
So I know that when she isn't replying to my texts or fb wall posts its because she is ignoring me. She's even dismissing the silly things we usually text each other like pictures of new manicures, jokes and general banter like that.
And I'm particularly shocked especially as she constantly tells me that she's always here for me, and she knows everything I'm struggling to get through. I feel like she knows how much I'll be panicking about her not speaking to me. And in the text I'd sent her saying I couldn't come on holiday with everyone I apologised for letting her down, but on second thoughts I know I'm not letting anyone down. But this silence is making me feel as though I am. I feel like I've been punched in the face.
It's not like there won't be other holidays. Right now just isn't the right time for me. But the fact that. I feel so hurt and I feel like she's punishing me for something that I don't have any control of at the minute.
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