I've just reached the point where I can't take it any more! All my life I have been trying to figure out why I don't have friends and why people don't like me and today I'm just giving up. Let's face it, the truth is that people DON'T LIKE ME
I can't make friends, when I meet new people it might be OK at the very beginning but after only a few weeks it gets worse and worse and they start treating me badly and/or they just stop talking to me, even though I haven't done anything to them, at least nothing that I know of. I turned 25 recently and I decided to invite some people for my birthday drinks. It took me a long time to find the people that I could invite, not because I didn't want to see them at my birthday, but because I don't have so many friends and most of the contact numbers are either to my ex colleagues, with whom I'm not in touch anymore, or to some random people I met several times and that's all.
When I finally chose several people that I though might come, a lot of them haven't reply at all and a great percentage of those who did replayed that they can't come and that all. I also sent invitations to all my colleagues at work, over 30 in total, (I wanted to invite my colleagues as I have NO friends) and only 4 replied... guess what? That they already have other plans. I regret that I sent those invitations because I feel so stupid now, especially that everyone knows that none of them is coming... and they are laughing at me behind my back... but why? I never did anything wrong to them so why are they being mean to me? I feel so unpopular... well, I am unpopular and it hurts so much!
I'm having that meeting soon and I feel so embarrassed that I don't ant to go anymore. If I'm lucky, there will be 4, maybe 5 people and they don't know each other yet... but they all think that my "FRIENDS" will be there... but I have no friends and they will laugh at me too when they find it out It will be so humiliated to admit to everyone that no one like me and I have no friends! (those few who might come are only some people I know, I see them maybe 4 times a year, so they're NOT my friends).
What is wrong with me? What's the reason that people find pleasure seeing me suffer? Yes, I turned 25 and I don't know what I'm doing wrong, I have no idea how to handle this situation even tough I tried to change it so many times! I think I tried almost everything and nothing works for me. I also feel so emotionally weak Today I just couldn't hold it together anymore, I just came home and started was crying. I've really had enough of it, I can't life like this any longer! Please help! Share your thoughts if you can
It also happened to me all the time since I was in high school. now I'm 25 and still feel the same way. I always think that people don't go all out on me. They're not trying to hurt me , but they also make me not to involve in an important situation. I work in a numbers of team. If there's something bad happen in that team, I feel that it blamed on me. I am the 1st target. I cant figure it out, why people act that way to me. I never try to do any harm things to them, never laugh at them when they're getting into trouble. But they do that things on me.. yeah.. sometimes shit happens.. and sometimes it happens all the times. Take it, learn and keep trying, only you can find the flow.. Sorry, I don't have any solutions and sorry for bad used of English .