Anyway, in my whole life (17, 5 years) I never had a single boyfriend. I never even kissed any of them! Not a single peck. Well, I hugged with a boy for a few times, but it doesn't count, I suppose. And all my friends (peers) are now talking about their "one night stands" (not sex, only kisses), how they snogged with them, how they liked it and so on. And what do I do? I LIE. "Oh, I kissed a boy, lol, in 7th grade, lol, no, you don't know him"
I know where the problem is. I am unattractive. Not like REALLY ugly, but I am seriously overweight, my nose is huge and my eyes are really small.And I never wear makeup, because, frankly, I hate how that stuff feels on my face. I have nice hair, though. Another problem is that I just don't know how to talk with guys. I never had any childhood friends boys, cousins live far away, no one socializes in this neighborhood. When I talk to guys, I always say something REALLY stupid, which sounds witty in my head, and basically I only talk about weather and (in the school) about teachers.
I don't need any of "You just watch your food and exercise, and you will feel beautiful in no time!" (Yeah, I am exercising every day in the gym for two months, NOT HELPING), or "You are beautiful just the way you are", because I am not.
I feel awful. I know what you must think: "Oh, one day your prince will come, don't worry". Or: "There are bigger problems in life". I KNOW THAT. But my prince WON'T come, I'll have to find one myself, because in this f*ing country live more women than men, and half of the men are taken/too old/too young, and half of that half are total douchebags and half of that half lives across the country, and so on so on so on. And I do have bigger problems, yes. But I can't help but feel awful, when I am the forever alone, sitting in the bar, while my friends snog handsome (foreign) strangers and later giggles: "Oh, that was wonderful, you know?!" and I am like "Yeah, I totally know that -_-", and they're all like "Oh, you won't understand".
It just makes me so sad. Sometimes I think, that I am going to die never been kissed, not to mention snogs or virginity. I am going to die in a small little cheap house with five cats, hated and unsociable.
When you think about it, it wouldn't be so bad.I like cats.
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Don't die a virgoin there are terorists waiting for you!!!!!!!
truelover1 Mar 09, 2013
@truelover1 Oh My God!! Sorry this was really funny! But if she wants she can have a terrorist but I'm sure there is someone waiting for her right now!
Thuglifenigga Jun 02, 2013