Killing myself

I just recently got married! I love my wife and my kids! I just got bagk from a deployment! I'm still not all thr in the head, and thats why I need to seek help! I can never get things right with the wife, she keeps telling me that she wants to leave me, an tells her daughters not to get attached to me at all! I keep picturing the brothers I lost in Iraq, and I feel like thr right next to me! I honestly think the only way to et rid of these heafaches and pain, is to just kill myself! Pillssssss

It's natural to feel guilty and undeserving when you survived and others close to you did not. Had the situation been reversed, your brothers would feel the same about you as you feel about losing them. Still, in that reversed situation, what would you want for them? Wouldn't you want them to know that they must accept what has happened and move on with their lives?

You can't expect people who haven't been there to understand. Please do what skyDancer advises above and get some help.

please dont kill yourself, u dont want to go to hell forever over something petty. u and your family need some heavy counseling and prayer sessions. dont allow the devil to control you... we americans are grateful for a soilder like you who is willing to fight for your country so we can be safe, that is much appreciated!!! pray about everything, never jump to the extreme. somethings in life are tests and this is one of them, the question is can you overcome the negative!

You aren't alone. Far too many people who served like you come home to family troubles that only add to the pain they already feel from the horrible things they experienced and witnessed.

Please talk to a counselor. There are many counselors who are trained to help soldiers in your situation who can handle hearing the terrible things you probably feel like you can't tell civilians. One place to start is The Soldiers Project. They offer free counseling. Their number is (877) 576-5343. I'm sure they could help you locate other resources as well.
http://www.thesoldiersproject.org/getting-help/

Thank you for your service. My heart goes out to you and my prayers are with you and your family.

You need to chill. What usually helps me is going to answers.yahoo and Uanswering some peoples questions wholeheartedly.
I think you should divorce your wife. You do need the mental abuse.
If you start from scratch, building up your life after dealing with all your other problems, the headaches ought to go away. Unless if the headaches are chronic, in which case_meds.... I suggest going on a detox spa, away from everything (like the ones from that "spa of embarrassing illnesses show"). Or boot camp for adults if there's such..