Im in love with my bestfriend? but does she love me? im a girl and shes a girl.

okay, so i've got this friend, my bestfriend, like the friendship we have is so deep, deeper than normal, but its confusing. we've been friends for eight years, we never saw eachother as she moved away, but called eachother constantly, I fell in love with her. but I was young, and I didnt have the courage to tell her exaclty how I feel.. so I left it, we drifted apart for about 6 months as she had so many troubles and pushed me away.. then we became friends again and things went back to normal.. and I knew that i'd really never stopped loving her.. so I decided to tell her.. at first she said that she loved me too, I was confused as I thought we were thinking of two different kind of loves..

i then see her again the next time after not seeing her for a month or so.. she denies that she told me she loves me.. so I thought im jus gonna leave it, we knew eachother so well it proved it wouldnt be a problem, well thats what I thought.. but it was eating away at me, and one day her mum told me that she had a feeling her daughter loved me (her mum knew I felt for her daughter) and then when I confronted my bestfriend about it, she said if she was gay with me she'd be scared what people would say or what they would think and also said if I was a boy i'd be her perfect type and be everything she wanted and needed, she has a big thing with being a mum and also said that if she was with me she culdnt have kids, she tells me to listen to lovey songs all the time, but when i've declared my love for her since, shes started denying her love for me again or shrugging the conversation off.. I dont know where I stand and im too scared to keep bringing it up incase it all gets too much for her and she decides to walk away, I love her and know that its her I want to be with and no one else, but question is judging by what i've said, do you think shes in love with me aswell?

- she might be in love with you.
- if people are making her scared to be in love with you, well she might need time to grow out of that fear. "Mature"
- she talked about having children(?) Does she want hers or to adopt.
- sometimes people can be in love with both a man/female.
- these are some things to think about.
- all you can do is try to move on and just be her friend. She may later change her mind and come back to you in that way.
- if not, well they are more people out there. Maybe even a guy, who knows. Just keep busy and meet more people.
- Always be sincere and friends.

As for me I know a few girls, I have 2 favorites and the rest I would date, but not sure. Which ever one goes out with me 1st well I am taking out. Never know.

What else is funny is one of my favorites is a lesbian. Her girlfriend decides to turn straight. Well I been trying to turn her my way. She is looking for true love, and said maybe I may be it. She and I get alone well and becoming stronger friends. Never know. Do you know how many times I said this is it, I don't anymore. I describe myself as a boat floating away and where ever it takes me, I shall go. However I have learned how to avoid the rocks. (the problems)