I was the same way, you must must must learn how to turn their hate towards you into motivation to PROVE THEM WRONG!!!! Stick to 3 meals with two snack in between but healthy ones. If you don't have healthy snacks than dont indulge. If you do indulge in a bad snack split that one snack into two snacks. Meaning eat half the bag between breakfast and lunch and the other half between lunch and dinner. Now you have to make water your best friend even if you don't like it. Water alone can make you lose weight. Now this is how I do it. I drink 8 ounces before a meal and 8 ounces after a meal. That's 16 ounces right. Now make it cold and it will make you feel full. If you do that for breakfast lunch and dinner, you've consumed 16x3=48 ounces of water. I start burning fat at 56-64 ounces so that way I get all 64 in is by doing this. Soon as I wake up in the morning I have a glass right when I goto the bathroom first thing, so put an 8 ounce cup in the bathroom. I do the same at night before I goto bed. So you add that 16 to the 48 ounces that you drink before and after every meal you got 48+16= 64. You can lose by diet alone to be honest. The benefit in working out walking etc is that you tone as you go so you won't be flabby persay. But losing weight to me has been 80% what I put in my mouth. stay closest to foods that are closest to their natural state. In other words processed box meals etc are not closest to natural. You're better off buying real meats and vegatables and cooking that to you liking with light amounts of carbs. I don't encourage taking carbs completely out because if you do, the moment you eat them again they will super size your weight gain and the body will fight you to let it go again. So it's best to keep some carbs but very little. also don't when you make a plate for yourself, don't let you food touch, see if you can make portions with enough space around each portion about a half inch apart this is how I control portions. If I go out to eat, I eat half now and the other half later for another one of the meals (Control yourself and your urges to hurt yourself by overeatting). I BELEIVE IN YOU, but you have to BELEIVE IN YOURSELF. This is a selfish accomplishment and no ones responsibility but yours from hear on out. YOU CAN DO IT. YOU CAN ALWAYS REINVENT YOURSELF whenever you get ready. Walking should be therapy from the pain of your past and current hurts, its a must for your emotional recovery. After while you'll find yourself joking for one minute and then going back to walking and then jogging for 2 minutes and keep increasing it. But don't overwhelm yourself the first day/week because it will discourage you to go back and try again due to the muscle pain. Good Luck...a distant Friend...remember WATER-WATER-WATER......NIKE....JUST DO IT!!!
