Should I continue with this relationship? Am I wrong?

I have been in a relationship that has been full of highs and lows which lasted about a year. It was my first gay relationship for two guys who had both been with women before. Both of us discovered this together. I have loved him so very much and the reason we fight is because we are so passionate about each other.

It recently came to a close at Christmas which was very upsetting. We are still having sex at times. It has been so complicated but I suggested trying again on the weekend just gone. He went off to London to meet some friends.

He comforted me as I am going through a very difficult time at the moment with my mother's severe depression. When I asked how his weekend had been he told me he shared a kiss with someone else. A friend I was already worried about.

I felt used, betrayed and hurt and he only allowed me to talk to him via text which upset me more. I did appreciate his honesty but wanted to know why he did it and felt that he should at least explain his reasoning behind it.... I felt like I had been strung along. We had a massive fall out via text because he isn't able to call me. He simply refuses because he knows I'm upset.

With the stress of my mum at home I thought he wouldn't be so insensitive to not be there for me and at least talk to me on the phone about it so we could just move on. I felt he was being a coward. He has been very jealous of various people I am friends with in the past and I have always comforted him about them. Why can't he do the same?

He says he wants to support me but it's only on his terms and when it suits him. I told him I couldn't do this anymore and I am fed up with him not listening to me.

My last message is to the point and honest but he hasn't replied. Should I continue down this road or move on? I feel helpless and I am at home dealing with a lot of problems. I know he is out there and going to meet this guy he kissed again tomorrow. He tells me there isn't anything going on but I don't kiss my friends!

As I said I have been up and down so much this/last year. I do love him so much but feel I am in a really bad place right now. I just wish we could try again.

Why does he deny my thoughts, opinions? I'm so sad and feel anxious most evenings when I know he's out and about. Unfortunately for me I am out of work after being made redundant so can't be too social.

Thanks,

James

If you let some time pass and you don't hear anything from him, as much of a downer as it will be, that will tell you he wasn't into the relationship as much as you were and you're better off to know that now.

If you do hear from him, and I suspect you will, try to get a stronger commitment before you go back to the way it was.

Don't fall into the trap of chasing after him. As tough as it might be, make the next move his. He has to feel some of the rejection you are feeling to make the adjustments he needs to make.

Ok babe, you are new to this right? so let it go there will be relationships like this whoever you are with and if he isn't goint to support you then finish it. You shouldn't have to deal with the stress of your mum and the stress of a new, gay relationship. There is a guy out there for you and if you don't find it with this one you like now then just keep looking xxx hope it helped babe.