I recommend u see a school counselor. If uve dropped out of school, talk to ur parents, or parents of a friend. Ask them to help you find a good, affordable social worker/psychologist.
Hopefully, you have health insurance that will cover your counseling sessions. If not, call/go to local hospital or church. Ask them to help you find a good (youth) counselor.
You are young and alone. I think you need to be ur OWN best friend. LOVE YOURSELF. No 14-yr-old has truly discovered themselves! You wanna be hangin' w/ ur girlfriends: going out to eat; playing sports; learning musical instrument; seeing good movies; & all the other funs things for a young life! Think: legal adult age's not till *18*!
Stay clear of sex. If u find yourself feeling in love with a boy YOUR AGE--STILL you want/need to take it slow. Again, Love Thyself.
Finally, whether ur in school or working--take time to maximize your youth. YOURS/YOU. NOT sexual partners; not till ur older and after uve defined ur own identity.
You'd be amazed @ all you learn with a little time. KNOW THYSELF. Wait for a while before taking on the big, adult stuff that ule be juggling for the rest of your life, later on!
Trust me. I'm a woman in my 50s. I know what I'm talking about.