okay, so here's the deal. i'm in high school and i'm bi. none of my school friends know this (except this person I really don't consider a friend anymore because we don't talk anymore). & i've been liking on this girl for a few months. she's so easy to talk to. really layed back and outgoing. okay with just bout anything. and she's definitely into sports. she's completely opposite of me! i'm quiet and reserved. i'm smart (not saying she's dumb) & i'm definitely a worriwart & paraiod. and I think too deeply into everything. i'm pretty sure she's bi herself because her friend kinda of told. but I also know the girl she was with isnt anything like me. she's really touchy-feely (the girl she was with before). and like I said im more reserved. I don't think i'm her type.
well, lately, i've been talking to her more. not so much in person because she makes nervous! but, yes I do talk to her in person just not a lot. I cant look her in the eye too long because I think she'll think i'm staring. i've honestly never liked someone as much as I do her. she makes me happy just by talking to her & makes me smile! i'm gonna tell you some of the things she does and I want you to tell me what you think.
she comes to me everytime for help on tests. this one makes me think i'm just being used but she talks with everyone! yet i'm the one she comes to for tests and I sit far from her while someone, who just had the same test as me & is smart & she talks to, sits right across from her. she gives me hugs. she calls me love. she let's me ask her the dumbest questions & doesn't care how random I am (i truely am random). lets me vent bout family issues and my self-absorbed friends. i'm the one who always texts her and I feel like sometimes i'm the one keeping the conversation going. there are times that she'll text me 1st but it rarely ever happens. like i'll tell you this one incident.
we had been texting all day. dont remember bout what. but we were both going to this big get-together thing and we had stopped talking like 2 hours ago so we could get ready. we both knew the other was going and I was running like 10 mins late. well on my way she texted me asking where was i. told her I was just running late & asked her who was all there (at this point I thought that she was waiting by herself with none of her friends there. thats why I thought she txted me). she said only a few & I should look for her as soon as I walk in the door. so I get there & the only people not there were like me & two others (not a few!). she's right there. surrounded by her friends (so there went my idea bout her waiting with no friends. in fact, she even brought one of them!). I greet her from behind (she had her back to the door) and she turns to give me a hug & tells me to pull up a chair. well they had that table surrounded so I went to the next table. (i may be quiet and shy but im very friendly and talk easy once a conversation starts.) well im talking and I go to check my phone for the time & I find a message from her asking hows my table. (she rarely txts me 1st). well I answer but we dont txt the whole time we're there. well, she seemed to be enjoying herself at her table. at the end of the thing, i'm on the phone with someone while waiting with a friend of mine & she comes from behind me and hugs me goodbye (didnt see her coming. too busy on the phone).
that was just one incident. what do you think? i've told myself sooo many times that I should crush these feeling I have for her because I don't think she's ever be into me that way because we are so different. but everytime I do, she does something that makes me think I might have a chance. I don't really know what to think anymore but I want to do something about it soon so I wanna know if i've got a chance.
well, lately, i've been talking to her more. not so much in person because she makes nervous! but, yes I do talk to her in person just not a lot. I cant look her in the eye too long because I think she'll think i'm staring. i've honestly never liked someone as much as I do her. she makes me happy just by talking to her & makes me smile! i'm gonna tell you some of the things she does and I want you to tell me what you think.
she comes to me everytime for help on tests. this one makes me think i'm just being used but she talks with everyone! yet i'm the one she comes to for tests and I sit far from her while someone, who just had the same test as me & is smart & she talks to, sits right across from her. she gives me hugs. she calls me love. she let's me ask her the dumbest questions & doesn't care how random I am (i truely am random). lets me vent bout family issues and my self-absorbed friends. i'm the one who always texts her and I feel like sometimes i'm the one keeping the conversation going. there are times that she'll text me 1st but it rarely ever happens. like i'll tell you this one incident.
we had been texting all day. dont remember bout what. but we were both going to this big get-together thing and we had stopped talking like 2 hours ago so we could get ready. we both knew the other was going and I was running like 10 mins late. well on my way she texted me asking where was i. told her I was just running late & asked her who was all there (at this point I thought that she was waiting by herself with none of her friends there. thats why I thought she txted me). she said only a few & I should look for her as soon as I walk in the door. so I get there & the only people not there were like me & two others (not a few!). she's right there. surrounded by her friends (so there went my idea bout her waiting with no friends. in fact, she even brought one of them!). I greet her from behind (she had her back to the door) and she turns to give me a hug & tells me to pull up a chair. well they had that table surrounded so I went to the next table. (i may be quiet and shy but im very friendly and talk easy once a conversation starts.) well im talking and I go to check my phone for the time & I find a message from her asking hows my table. (she rarely txts me 1st). well I answer but we dont txt the whole time we're there. well, she seemed to be enjoying herself at her table. at the end of the thing, i'm on the phone with someone while waiting with a friend of mine & she comes from behind me and hugs me goodbye (didnt see her coming. too busy on the phone).
that was just one incident. what do you think? i've told myself sooo many times that I should crush these feeling I have for her because I don't think she's ever be into me that way because we are so different. but everytime I do, she does something that makes me think I might have a chance. I don't really know what to think anymore but I want to do something about it soon so I wanna know if i've got a chance.
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