The girl i love more than anything left me and i don't know what to do. help?

I want her back more than I've ever wanted anything before. I don't know what to do with myself. I love her so much.. she's the only comfort i had.. she doesn't even realize how much i care for her. She says go find a new gf. I can't. I don't want any other girls. I was after her for 2 years then we finally dated for a year.. and now she's gone. I haven't slept or ate in 2 days. My head is killing me and my stomach hurts but I can't do it. My chest literally aches so bad I feel sick and can't eat, and when I try to sleep I just lie awake all night.
But there's nothing i can do.. she got this attitude of 'I'll do what makes me happy' a few months ago and I was scared this would happen..
I don't really have any friends I can turn to because I live in VA and they are all back in WA. I don't have a job because I quit the last one and no one's hiring anymore.
I literally have nothing to live for anymore. Nothing at all. Stuff I used to care about I really don't. All I want to do is put a bullet in my head. But I promised her I wouldn't. She's locked me in a painful bind and I can't get out.
I've tried to be mad at her but I can't. I just love her so much but she doesn't seem to care about me. Please help me

My mother in law hate me so much that she wanted me out of my husband house because I have been unable to give her a grandchild I never knew what to do one day when I was at my working place a friend of my told me about how she had a spell cast on her by this man named Ekaka and after which her life came back to normal so I chosen to give him a trier which I did contacted him on his email: ekakaspelltemple@yahoo.com after which he get back to me and told me what I need to do and also how my problem was going to be solve and after 1month I started seeing changes in me I and so happy now that I can now give birth to my own child and my mother in law is now happy with me since I have been pregnant for her son.

Getting my Ex back
my name is Ja'Nyah. I've known Lameik for years, When we finally got together things were kind of weird so we broke up which was in February of 2011 In June of 2012 he and I recently got back together and we were together until march of 2013 which he told me he was not interested in relationship again During that time I changed completely, I wasn't eating,I was sleeping a lot, I wasn't talking to anybody, I cried a lot,I'm so depressed and stressed out that I'm scared I'm going to end up in the hospital because of all the stress and depression until one day I search online on getting love tips because I Love & care about him deeply and I just want us to be together as a couple again and I want us to last forever Google recommend me DR LOVE drlovespellcastersolution@gmail. com +2348038096203 that he will solve my relationship problem then Dr Love told me he will come back to me between 48hrs after he cast spell on him never believe it until my fiance called me on the phone and told me he want us to come back and live happy together forever , Am so happy now that DR LOVE help me bring Lameik back to me. Thanks so much Dr Love